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Compendium - 2017 - Digital Compilation Album

by Feeding Fingers

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I don't care how you got in here With this jar full of fireflies Just let me crush and smear Their glowing asses Across your mouth And when I turn out this light I only want to see your face Coming closer To kiss me Until the smell of this Makes us sick
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Somewhere inside this broken Plaything hides disease And waits Wrapped in a cold blur While I Make-believe she shows me things that Breathe You smile when I Make that Sound And turn out the lights when I Speak aloud You say that you don't do well in Crowds Can't we forget our names While we're allowed? Her memory sleeps in a garden inside A closet filled with Flies Feed to me your pills and letters But I Only hear you when you speak to me Through white light Breed with me under ice
3.
I think of you in the furthest places where light and your breath feel like something I know I lost as a child when I was there cold-burning thieves drink the sun and eat concrete from our hands umbrellas cover the world and we sleep in the rain "Don't follow them into the place that melts away... I cannot go with you... I cannot go with you This isn't home but it's where I really want to Be..." Detach me Detach me Detach me From my Head Replace me Replace me Replace me With someone else I don't belong here now I don't belong here now I've crawled through Myself and out And I don't belong here Now
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I bathe my mind in the forgotten lives Of haunted names Because your secrets sleep deep In your open mouth Where Parasites dream Ashamed and bulimic Candied laughter crawls Through the stains that you leave And feed the ghosts in my sheets Another family called And sent here to hush me I could never sing well in pairs And I know it shouldn't touch me To be tethered to musical chairs And you were sent here to hush me I could never sleep well in pairs And I know it shouldn't touch me To be tethered to musical chairs
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I finally felt like I had found something Outside of my own mind With real lips And real eyes That spoke real words And listened to mine And I adored you Like I adored nothing else Because you made me feel How I wanted to feel Don't kiss me now
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I promise to build you a machine To stitch the sky back Into One piece Before tonight Please play with dead thoughts and memories Because I'm tired of Being safe In my mind So who am I Who am I So goodbye Goodbye Everyone Goodbye Goodbye There are no keys left to Stab my secrets with In my mind And if you Find a grave Made for objects In a place where No one takes them home It's alright Goodbye Goodbye Everyone Goodbye Goodbye There are no keys left to Stab my secrets with In my mind And if you Find a grave Made for objects In a place where No one takes them home I will help you Figure it out And write a history For dead animals In pink scarves
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A maimed home "Who lives there?" I think no one Or maybe me My Dear And weeds Some Say, "thank you" A womb and and eye open, shut My cancer craves debut Whores gloved nurse orphans Veiled in feathers And when we laugh We laugh together Tightrope binds hope Life steeped in waste With every climb, I fall My heart beats Erased And if I'm drawn this way Then I'm drawn this way Applause like sparks Choking in the dark Her face Shown And disappeared A pink no one Or maybe me My Dear And dreams Some Stay past due A womb and an eye open, shut My cancer craves debut
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Everyone is born inside of photo-booths here With stolen names And birthdays That make no sense They have to be told to Feel what they feel These manufactured missing children Are really here And they're innocent They're innocent And not innocent at all A yellowed man in a wheelchair Won't let me sleep Laminated scrambled eggs Are all that we'll eat This is why I go Inside myself And I'm innocent I'm innocent And not innocent at all There is nothing left to see here There is nothing left to see Nothing isn't ever wrong with me
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A room With needs Tight breathing walls and near My life within and without An animal breathes In dust, In fear A calculated loss of leaves and years Halls of meat and light And feral, teething saints And coiling lovers Chaste raped one Removed white seeds Phantom winter sounds From here Polaroid papercuts Skin peeling Clear An animal breeds In dust In fear A calculated loss of leaves and tears
12.
The taste of rain In an open wound Why should I still want your skin When mine is as soft as hers Starving whores Breastfeeding men Swallowing their voices This is where mimes come To say goodbye This is where mimes come To die Facedown in the snow And broken ice I removed my mind So that I could always Always Be wrong I'll always be wrong I'll always be alone
13.
I don't know why I do this every year I should have learned by now that there is no one in this World that I should be with But I want someone To kiss me And hold me And let me taste their skin And tell me funny stories about the Stupid things they did But I'm not smart enough And I'm not handsome enough And I'm not into resting Enough To keep anyone Next to me In the mornings I Wake up first To pretend that life Won't Get in the way But I Know that you are beautiful And there is no reason Why you should stay Because I am so fucking stupid And I am someone who is afraid To be left By myself And I do expect you And I don't blame you And I do expect you To be leaving me On my own Love doesn't exist in me I don't trust Anything but puppets And my secret place This is why I always speak so vaguely And none of my songs ever make Any sense I'm not smart enough And I'm not handsome enough And I'm not interesting enough To keep anyone next to me
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I will find a book I penned between lives blank Where all of these towns and choices end Freight for annulled ships Discreet lives claimed A shared vacancy required No recall of what harm brought bleaching time When I buried these flies These flies Know that all of what arms sought reaching mine Are forgotten by Design
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If anyone stops to feed them They will know that we chose to go without And I just don't care to choose Taste footprints on filthy ceilings In a house that we know that we can live without Did I make this safe to do Erase my lies so that heaven is all that you'll hear While I waste my life Eating my shadow And this goes for all of you And I do see all of you Still in my life
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A sleeping centipede presence Chemically now Appears atoned, bereft and alone allied To deprive the lust of A cannibal midwife Penned ivory crossed ignites Found in knots Like tails on kites An inheritance of loss from leeches to guide my heart Time Pairing glans pry and ache Life seething there A birth like births allowed In you Things that carry on Amended clean with heat and bridal bands Your tongue still sweet vacates, arrives Monotone But happier untied
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A growing chorus of spores Like shedding skin pried from the numb and In them pain and clinical routines and scars Hour hands slice open people then Leave them bright, shy hopes for sequels and Rows of leaders need our meat for their Broken little drum Force feed more than life could My collection of dry eyes should See through petaled nights of loss that share A home inside of my heart There unsetlled like every place I haunt And you're building more Force feed more than life could my collection of dry eyes should See through petaled nights of loss that share A home inside of my heart Written in pencil like everything I want And I'm erasing doors

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Compilation album of select, remastered tracks taken from Feeding Fingers' first five studio albums. A celebration of ten years of Feeding Fingers.

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released June 1, 2017

Produced by Justin Curfman, Dana Culling, James "Coyote J" Battan, Paul Burke and David I. Nunez.

All music written and performed by Justin Curfman. All rights reserved.

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Feeding Fingers

Formed in 2006 by artist Justin Curfman, re-located to the EU in 2010 and has since evolved into an internationally connected project with intermittent members from the USA, Germany, Austria, & Italy. Feeding Fingers has toured N. America & Europe since 2006 with IAMX, David J. (Bauhaus, Love & Rockets), Nitzer Ebb & others, including two appearances on National Public Radio. ... more

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